My life has been a series of screwups and enormous victory - just like everyone else.
I've been training lately, training to fight in a medieval martial art. I've also had some personal issues that I've been dealing with and I act out in ways that are entirely inappropriate.
The things I do seem natural, and resonant with the situation - at the time. But, later reflection reveals that I'm a fucking cur and say things that don't at all represent who I am.
My biggest enemy is myself.